For two weeks I let myself forget how solitary life has been. I let myself forget how much it sucks to do it all alone. I let myself remember how much better everything is when we are together. I let myself get wrapped up in how wonderful Swiss is, how amazing life is when we are together.
I let myself feel whole again and it was spectacular.
And now I am back to one. My heart hurts today. I feel empty and un-whole and sad. And I want this to be over.
I want Swiss back. Badly.