24 January 2010

Molasses.

Ugh. Our neighbor's husband is home. As in home from the deployment. He is in the same group of guys that Swiss is in... and I'm 95% sure he left after Swiss did. And he's home before Swiss is. My patience is wearing thin.

Don't get me wrong, I am super happy for them. (Honestly!!!) I won't begrude anyone their happy homecoming because deployments are hard on everyone and we've ALL earned our celebrations. But the past week has seen a steady stream of decorated cars, banners on bridges, signs on homefronts... more and more. I see them everywhere naturally, at the PX, the commissary, in the Home Depot parking lot, at the mall, next door, on my run, everywhere. And can I tell you that I am so sick of it.

I'm not sick of it because I think it is lame or overly saccharine. The first signs I saw made me happy and misty and left me beaming all day long. Now I'm just over it because I'm tired of everyone else having their homecoming but us. (Okay, that isn't fair, there are obviously other families in the unit still waiting) I don't know. I'm just ready to have our reunion. I'm ready for that to be us. I'm ready for the signs to be on our house and the decorations on our truck. I am ready to not be in this house alone anymore.

Perhaps all of this is just because my patience is wearing thin and the final weeks of this deployment have left we weary, they are moving oh so slowly- sometimes it is hard to believe we've been doing this for almost a year now. Sometimes it feels like less, but mostly it feels like its been a decade. I am tired and exhausted and so, so over it. I'll stop my whining now. But man oh man, I want that to be us already!

6 comments:

Julie the Army Wife said...

The same thing happened to us. Actually my husband's company left and then another company left 3 days later and they got back to Germany before my husband did. It was so frustrating. I hope your husband gets there very very soon. Hang in there. The end is the worst.

Post Tenebras Lux said...

Arrrgh! So hard! I'm sorry. . . .

Hilary Jacobs said...

arg! that is so painful. my soldier was on the last mainbody flight, and got back three weeks after the first mainbody, let's not even talk about the avon group that was back two months prior. it is really tough. but then.............it all melts away!!!! xo

TheAlbrechtSquad said...

I totally understand, my husband was one of the last two Soldiers home from his entire Brigade. He got home a couple weeks after everyone else. I too had friends who's husbands left after my husband who came home first. I went to 12 homecomings before my husband's (trying to be supportive). Each one got harder and harder. I admit, I even cried at a few, but I wasn't crying tears because I was upset at them or whatever, I was just done and ready for my turn.

That doesn't make you a bad person, that makes you human. I hope time goes by fast for you!

tootie said...

I would be so frustrated, too. I hope he gets home soon!!!

liberal army wife said...

yeah. sucks massively.

LAW